-Oscar Wilde 

Created on 3/21/01 from a letter written to Kate.
Why, precisely, is it that Kate and her friends objectify people to justify their actions? I'm frankly tired of being treated as an object and rather think I deserve to be treated as a human being.
Throughout this... emotional melee... I have always remembered that she is a human being, one whom I'm infinitely fond of despite the artifice she covers herself in to be "free," and I love her as much as I would love anyone who had shown me the depths their soul can reach. She flawed and fallible, for she is of flesh, but she is wonderful because of it, not despite it.
All I am asking is for her to see me as I am. Rather, I wish she would not allow others to further this denigration of me. I have seen that she tries to see me as I am, and I appreciate that. But I have also seen her lose that clarity. That tendency is what I want space from, not her. I want to hold her close and tell her secrets, because she amazes me constantly as all those I love do. So she should see me as I AM. Not the symbol of "boyfriend" and "relationship" which she associates with her systematic oppression and her perceived loss of freedom and gained experiences. I am not a symbol and do not wish to be, now or ever.