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04.25.99 8:58 p.m.

"We're humorous... and we stand a better chance under that guise, because all the serious people like Martin Luther King and Kennedy, and Ghandi got shot."


  -John Lennon 


Created on 3/22/01 from a letter written to Nicole.
Katie seems to learn through osmosis. She's started healing like I do and feeling the charges in objects and eating a lot of fresh, green plants to keep her magickal energy up. I didn't teach her any of that (except a little of the healing). She's just learning a lot. I did teach her about opening and closing and invoking and banishing, etc. She's just really into the theories, like I was. She understands the basic on how to do things; she just wants me to tell her why these things work. How come I can make the rocks vibrate in her hand and how come she can hear my thoughts (A thoroughly uncomfortable experience when one is not expecting it).
She's taken a lot of initiative. Like, she keeps surprising me by knowing facts I haven't taught her (I did lend her some books, but I keep forgetting that she is actually reading them.) And she has healed my headaches (Unfortunately, she didn't know when to stop the first time and gave us both worse headaches). I had been telling her things for a few months, because she was curious about that aspect of my life. But I wasn't that willing to tell her too much, because I just felt uncomfortable doing so.
I've verbally been explaining things to her for about five months. I've been actually teaching her for a month and a half. I initiated her (all signs clicked and it seemed pure) the night before Easter.
I am not about to do sex magick with her as Coley suggested. It's too powerful and there needs to be a purpose to such magick. Like a healing magick would be great, but who could I heal? It's just messing with forces that should not be messed with needlessly. I will do some ritual with her, though. I am doing a circle with Chris on May Day that I am bringing her to.
I didn't like the Goddess-God ritual I did with Chris a little while ago. It was nice and powerful, but it downgraded the role of the god. It made him the pathetic, obsequious lapdog of the goddess and I believe them to be equals. They are the same thing, after all. Masculine and feminine are both necessary in Nature. Sorry, rambling.


reading: Uncle Bucky's Big Blue Book
listening: Enchantresswanting: Eternal magic(k) with Kate.
interesting thought: Masculine and feminine are meaningless to an alien.

Xen is published by Cave Drawing Ink in "Rise of the Outlanders!", is the author of "Beside the Still Water", and head writer in the forthcoming "Parallaxis". He was featured in the Summer 2010 issue of Broken City Magazine. His story "Always Darkest" published in Paragon III. The first novel of his Night's Dream Series, We Shadows is available from Double Dragon Publishing. He syndicated throughout the internet. He will write for you if you pay him. He likes when you comment.