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10.04.99 11:31 a.m.

"I'll talk about stuff that bothers me, like the way people are being cheated out of the experience of 'becoming'. It's the computer which becomes now. People think, 'Oh, boy, wait until I get this new program.' Bill Gates will give you a program to write a perfect Shakespearean sonnet. For God's sake, that's not becoming."


  -Kurt Vonnegut 


Created on 7/19/01 from a letter written to Kate.
I just read an article about how one of the people who was killed in Columbine is supposed to be a martyr. There are so many things wrong with all of this... I think I'll go shoot up my school because I have become so disillusioned. Hey... wait... think about it. Isn't disillusionment a GOOD thing? It allows you to see the truth behind facades; illusions... I WANT to be disillusioned! I don't want to be lied to!
Anyway, what does it matter who said they believe in God? What if she said she believed in the Goddess or the almighty Vishnu? Is she LESS of a martyr? And how exactly is she a martyr? What grand cause did she die for? Being in the wrong place at the wrong time. Not quite martyr material, in my opinion. Just a profound tragedy that people simple won't stop milking for attention. They are dead and no amount of talking and controversy can ever bring them back. Let them be.


reading: too many article glamorizing a tragedy.
listening: the soundtrack to itwanting: a less sensationalistic and vulturous world.
interesting thought: This tragedy could have been prevented hundreds of times and wasn't.

Xen is published by Cave Drawing Ink in "Rise of the Outlanders!", is the author of "Beside the Still Water", and head writer in the forthcoming "Parallaxis". He was featured in the Summer 2010 issue of Broken City Magazine. His story "Always Darkest" published in Paragon III. The first novel of his Night's Dream Series, We Shadows is available from Double Dragon Publishing. He syndicated throughout the internet. He will write for you if you pay him. He likes when you comment.